I think we are about 11 days out. This is a really hard time. We are seriously short on money for this thing and I just am not sure what to do about it. I am extremely excited, more so about being married. I have never been one to enjoy getting all dolled up and stared at. Several people are starting the whole mantra of telling me not to stress. That is kinda like telling me not to breathe at this point. Many of these same people either have not had to plan a wedding (or never will have to) or had or know people that had rich daddy's to pay for it or mommy's that had tons of time to go shopping and help plan. I havent had that. Everyday I have had a list of 1000 things that need to be done and rarely anyone to help. I have amazing friends that had contributed tremendously, but they cant do it all. Alan has really done all that he can and I love him for it. I am doing everything I can to make the most important day of my (and Alan's) life as perfect as I possibly can. I know it cant be everything...but I want so badly to make this the most special day in our lives thus far. This is why it does hurt when I get blanket statements like "oh, dont stress about money" or my personal favorite "take an Ex-lax". I guess these statements probably come from people that feel they are being supportive when, really, they make me feel like I am being judged for working so f*&%ing hard on this wedding. My marriage to Alan means the world to me...and any amount of stress only stems from that. I cried a lot last night...mostly due to these types of comments...no matter how right I try and do everything...people will still judge me and try and tell me I am wrong. It hurts. So, please understand and support us for the love we share, not judge us for the human flaws that we will never get over.